I'm engaged as of May 26th to a Christi Pearce, who loves Jesus so very much, and will be married October 18th in Tallahassee. Isn't that exciting?

Last Friday - went to a specialist to get checked out for specific type of cancer, all symptoms including pain and  abnormal hard growth went away the night before because I had people interceding for me.  The specialist didn't see anything for concern when I went in.  Praise God!

Tuesday - My frustration with not being able to connect with God at all for several weeks finally came to a head, and I broke down in frustration.

Wednesday night - my car broke down.  The clutch, rear main seal and CV axle need to be replaced - $650.00 + towing.  I was already struggling to pay rent.  My mom helped me out even though she really doesn't have the money.  Praise God!

Thursday night - I had a great time at the Chi Alpha banquet with Morgan.  It was the highlight of my week.  Then I came home and misread an e-mail from my Hebrew teacher and ended up thinking I needed to do six hours of homework instead of two.  At 3:30am, when I finished, I re-read the email and realized my mistake.  I tried to get up at 6:00am to study for my Hebrew quiz but I didn't roll out of bed until 7:00am.  I only got to study for 1.5 hours and I did poorly.

Friday - I didn't get to start out with quiet time and I was so busy the rest of the day.  I got home at 4:30am and Morgan was there.  I just wanted to tell her how hectic my day had been, but she wanted to talk to me.  She told me that I might be surprised to hear this, but she had "lost her peace" about our relationship and told me that we shouldn't be dating.  I asked her, in order to clarify exactly what she was saying, if she was saying that she wanted to take a break for an indefinite amount of time from our relationship.  She told me no, because that meant that there is hope.  She said that she thinks I'm great and that I haven't done anything wrong, but she needs to trust God.  She doesn't want to talk for a while.  This is all really bizarre, because we've been talking about marriage for over a month and I asked her father if I could marry her three weeks ago.  Everything was great and then her medication for anxiety and depression (Paxil) ran out.  I'm writing all these things so you all can be informed on how to pray for her.  She needs to be delivered from whatever is ailing her.  Please pray for her and us.

God is my all and all and I don't lose anything if she walks out of my life.  But my heart is torn and it hurts.  The Holy Spirit reminded me that I had prayed a few weeks ago for Him to make me desperate for Him.  I had acknowleged that it was a dangerous prayer, but I knew the Lord knew what I could handle.  Can you also pray for me that I'll be strong and learn everything I need to learn during this time?  I would really appreciate it.

Jason

God gave me all my scholarships back -- I prayed for God's favor, then I called and they told me that my scholarships had already been restored for the fall semester.  FSU is paying me again to go to school.  Glory to God!

Brandon will be standing in my position for leading the 24/7 prayer movement.  He was an answered prayer.  I can now go on the vacation to upstate New York with my family.  My mom really wanted me to go because I'm the only one in the family she can talk to about God.  Everyone else seriously needs Jesus.  The sad thing is that they think they have Him.  July 6th - 17th is when I'll be with them.  Last year, my stepdad cussed my mom out in front of my very young cousins while I was praying at the boathouse early in the morning.  I had left my Bible on the table and my stepdad told her to move it.  My mom asked, "Do you have a problem with it being there?"  That's when he blew up.  He calls himself a Christian, but takes away the glory that is due to God.  My mom praises God for delivering her from a situation, but my stepdad says, "Don't give glory to God.  If He was really looking out for you, you would have never been in the situation in the first place."  There is also a lot of bitterness towards God for taking away my grandfather's life in his 80s.  Please pray for them and me when I'm there.  I need to be who God made me to be and "not change myself for any man" as were God's words to me through a messenger at the altar of River of Life Church.

After vacation, I plan on going on another vaction, just me and God.  He put upon my heart the other morning to go somewhere for 6-7 days and just fast and spend time with Him in prayer and listening in meditation upon His word.  If you have any suggestions to where I could go that is free and indoors and away from humanity, please let me know.  I reall need this because I have been broken, and my weakness was a cue for Satan to attack me, physically and spiritually.  I've been running to refuge in God constantly, and 5-8 hours a day in the Secret Place has not been enough.  It is going to be really hard for me to wait until three more week for an exclusive week with God.  I have the strength to persevere in Christ.  In my weakness, He is strong.